I may as well type an update. I'm very apprehensive about things right now. Many things are in limbo, and I don't feel secure at all. It's not like I've ever become used to having things secure, because I've learned I can't get comfortable with the way life is.
Today I had therapy. And yes, I mean therapy with behavioral health. I'm not ignorant enough (at least not now) to believe I can handle this all on my own. The biggest problem is that doctors continually tell me that I need to seek behavioral health for most of my treatment. I don't buy it. And I probably never will. The thing that really hurt me after the neurology appointment was that she suggested I seek behavioral health. I'm not going to say that behavioral health is bad, because it isn't. In fact, I've been through many rough times with them helping me. What I am saying is that what is wrong with my body doesn't have much to do with my emotions. Yes, I have a history of anxiety and depression. But it seems that because of this, they are unwilling to seek out any other medical answers. Anywho. Things went very well, and I feel very comfortable with her and I feel like she could actually be very helpful to me.
Still no answers. I was supposed to have my cystoscopy today, but it didn't happen. Things are complicated, there's something not quite right. I don't like it. So, until later, please pray about it!
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