Random thoughts spewing out of my brain...there ya go

I wish I could say that I've made some major strides. In some ways, I have made a lot of strides without a doubt. But, it wasn't where I've been wanting. Each and every day I deal with constant pain and fatigue. The pain and fatigue are a vicious cycle. Part of what makes the pain gets worse is the fact that my muscles get very fatigued and as a result begin to burn and shake. It certainly doesn't help that I've been trying to move things from my apartment for the past four days. Thank goodness I'm finally done with that. My step dad and uncle helped move the big things from the apartment into a storage unit. My mother also drove down so that we had enough trucks to move all of the things in one trip. It went a lot smoother than I expected. I was very thankful for their help. The only two big things in there were my bed and the hide-a-bed. I've basically decided that whenever I decide to move out on my own, I will more than likely have to buy a new bed. Actually, I have to look into a bed frame that is possibly a little more safe for me as far as preventing me from falling out of bed. I've fallen out of bed a couple of times so it is a concern. Plus, my box spring and mattress are incredibly dirty. The bed frame is missing a screw and so every time I moved around in the bed in the apartment the entire bed made a squeaking noise. And, when I think about it, it's very likely that I will stay at the house with my grandparents until I am either closer to being out of school or until I am completely out of school. Financially it will work a lot better for me, and as far as my health goes, it's much safer for me to be living with others rather than being alone.

I've been especially irritable and cranky today. I can't figure out why. I need to get out and do things, I need to get my pain under control. This visit to the neurologist can not come soon enough.