That's it....

I'VE HAD IT.

I mean it. Done. Seriously. I'm tired of dealing with this. I'm frustrated that I continue to struggle with this disease and I don't feel like the supplements are doing much of anything for me. My pain levels are frequently through the roof. My energy levels continue to be significantly lower than they used to be. I'm tired. I hurt. I'm sick of this. I can't go on this way. Working 60 hours a pay period lifting people who are over 50 pounds heavier than I am, practically breaking my back...you get the idea. I'm so sick to death of all of it. I refuse to accept this. I can't go on this way. I don't have a case manager, I don't have supportive family or friends. I don't even know who I should make my POA if I can not communicate/make my own decisions. Problem is, I can't keep wishing this away. I can't keep putting off these decisions. SO I have decided a) to call Dr. P's office tomorrow morning b) Print out information on Mito for him and attach information about doctors/tests I've heard of that confirm Mito. c) Demand change. d) Be more proactive.

I can't give this up. I have to keep going. I have to fight.