Silence..

I'm not going to apologize for my silence, as there is a very good reason for it. I returned to work on Tuesday. As wonderful and as much of a blessing as this is, I am very overwhelmed. I'm attempting to adjust to both working and school yet again. Not to mention the fact that I am also adjusting to being back to work after being off for three months. Furthermore, I am not as stable as I once was. I fear another decline. I want to do absolutely everything in my power to prevent it. I pray God will allow me to be stable. There are so many things I need right now. I need peace, health, energy. None of which I actually have at this time. My energy levels are so limited. I have been in a lot of pain as well. Much of what I see is myself, going back to almost exactly the place I was before. The dark place that began the seizures, the weakness, the higher pain levels. And I'm so tired of it. I'm thinking about calling Dr. P. I'm about to get down on both of my knees and beg God to help me. I know He will.

I feel awful. And I'm not going to hide it.