Bleh

I'm not even sure I should be posting anything on this blog right now. I'm afraid, so afraid of jinxing myself. Things are not going well right now, but I don't really don't know what else to do. I had another spell the other day. Mama Mary was the only thing that kept me from falling. The spell was very short-lived, but still scary because I went limp. It obviously was not a seizure...this time.

I have a feeling the pernicious anemia is only hurting this situation. So I decided to go back to the clinic to figure out why this is happening. They decided to give me IM antinausea medication. It did help, but I had to get a shot in my hip, which I wasn't incredibly fond of. I also received my B-12 injection as I was supposed to. They drew another B-12 level to see where the pernicious anemia is at.

I decided also that the bladder problems are only hurting the situation as well. I'm afraid of drinking too much fluid during the day because I'm afraid I'll have to use the bathroom all the time, which is true. So, I called urology and asked to bump up the cystoscopy. Thank God, they did find a slot for next Wednesday. So I'm getting this addressed as quickly as possible. I placed a call to neurology who urged me to continue to monitor this. And I will.

My  pre-op is scheduled today for 2 PM. I pray that this will be the beginning of answers and more quality of life. I have also decided I need more nutrition. So that likely means increasing my supplement to twice a day. Or, trying other supplements. I need to be getting nutrition in somehow. If I can't eat, I will have to drink it.

Obviously I'm not anywhere near being happy about this. I was taken off of the work schedule for the rest of the week, and since I'm having the cystoscopy on Wednesday, I will be off for sure that day. I'm hoping they will allow me to work next Friday and my weekend. I'm doing everything I possibly can to get this taken care of and nipped in the bud.

I need to be in prayer about this. I am trying so hard.