WHEW

Well, it's been a rough week. Tomorrow is my 15th day of working in a row between my regular job and clinical. Thankfully, after tomorrow I have three days off and I can not wait to have some time off. It's definitely been a long time coming, and I am thrilled because I will be able to have some good conversation with Brett. Being away from him for this long has been difficult, and I know it really hasn't been that long. As I've said before, I'm very, very lucky that I have been able to be as close to Brett as I was for as long as I was. He was stateside for most of our relationship, and it's only been for the last month or so that he has been away. In some ways, I know it's good because I can focus on school and work, and planning this wedding. However, I have noticed that I've been depressed since he has left. I'm not really sure why, and I'm trying hard to snap out of it because I know it's really not good for my health status. But with that being said, there's a part of me that knows I can't completely "snap out of it" until we are together again. I am just going through the motions and trooping on until then.

The truth is, he is never far from my thoughts. And I know that what he's doing is good for our relationship because it is helping him pay for college and eventually it will help us build a life for ourselves. All I do know is that I an not wait to marry this man in less than five months now. It is closer now than it ever has been! My emotions have been pretty fragile lately. I have watched a movie that lets me have a good cry every now and then. Really, it's a great movie. I need that release of emotion right now, because I find myself trying to hold it in which is definitely not healthy. One thing I have taken from the movie, a quote, "We knew better than to let love slip away." That is so incredibly true for Brett and I. Fairly early in our relationship, I knew that he was the one for me, that I was madly in love with him and that I was going to spend the rest of my life with him. It took me a while to be able to trust him, and for him to trust me. But I can't honestly say I regret any of this! I can not wait to be Mrs. Boehne!

I have to ask for prayers. A family member of mine, my great uncle is in the hospital and is in pretty serious condition after being airlifted from our local hospital. He was at first unable to breathe adaquately and was given some medication here, which he evidently had a bad reaction to. Now, he has a tracheostomy and is on dialysis. At this time, we don't really know why he is so ill and there really aren't any leads. At one point, it looked like he might have some sort of cancer, but now at this point it looks like that's not the case. It is very frustrating not to know anything, and as you can probably imgaine, this is very tough on our family. Please keep him, his family, and the rest of us in your thoughts and prayers. Hopefully he will make a good recovery but time will tell.

As for me, I have been trying to hold my own. I am counting the days until the wedding, and I absolutely can't wait. Hopefully things will go well for my uncle and I will be able to get some more things figure out for the wedding. I don't have much time to get all of this planning done now. Less than five months now!