I am frustrated. I know right? Shocking.

I just figured out that my blood pressures and pulses are still not stable. I am working on trying to get through everything in time for these appointments I have with GI, Medical Genetics and Urology. I have inservice all day at my workplace tomorrow and should definitely be in bed.

There is so much going on in my mind and in my heart. I have to get things off of my chest eventually. Whenever that will happen.

One of these days I will get everything out. While I don't know when that is going to be, I honestly wish I could know that it will be soon.

My great grandma suffered a stroke last week (she is my step dad's grandmother, the one that does not have Alzheimer's). She was in the hospital up until today and was admitted to a nursing home for rehabilitation. Her speech is very severely affected and she is extremely frustrated with herself. You can tell she wants to get everything out that is going on in her mind, but she just can't do it. Watching it, to be truthful is frustrating as well. Her ability to roll her eyes and swear is still intact. I guess something things never change. I would appreciate any prayers people can offer for her. She is struggling in very real ways and I know that God is going to help her through this. Whether she will be able to go home again or not is a huge question that is on everyone's mind, including (I'm sure) hers. I have hope that she will regain her speech and the mobility she once had on her right side. But, she has to be willing to do what the therapists tell her to. She has to work and struggle to get stronger. They have to teach her how to speak again. I can not imagine how that is going to go, or how frustrating it must be for her.

I've only experienced something vaugely similar when I have a seizure or energy crash. But to be in that state prolonged for an unknown amount of time would be so scary. I can only hope that a stroke is not in my near future. But, of course it is common knowledge in the Mito world that people with Mitochondrial disease are at an increased risk of stroke and at a younger age than most. But, it's OK, I can not look at the future like that. One day at a time. That's all I can handle right now.